Accessory? NATT

Boyfriends come and go but girlfriends don’t.

True indeed.

But don’t you think it is also possible the other way around?

Would you agree if i say it this way,

“Girlfriends come and go, but true love don’t.”

For a couple of years of wandering, I’ve come across variety of people. I’ve made my way to a melting pot, where different cultures are being mixed up and  tested if it’ll match up perfectly. It isn’t that i couldn’t fathom the complexity of life, it is more of that i am used to seeing people on their different limelight and i don’t care much if they’re way different from me, or if they have what i don’t have, I believe that I shine in my own podium from where I am standing now.

But i don’t forget those people I’ve met on my way to where I am now. Im neither in the top nor in the midway of my journey. I am now sojourning a few steps up my ladder.

They say I have a lot of close friends. And I believe that can be considered as a fact.

I have a lot of best friends, I got one from grade school, two from HS, and a couple from college. It isn’t that I easily name my close friends as my bests, i just easily entitle my trust to those people worth it. But sometimes, I fail to choose the right people to entrust my life with- not to to a man but to a used-to-be best friends of mine. This made me say that girlfriends come and go. Because I’ve experienced this sort of heartache.

I abhor the feeling of being used as an accessory. I am trying my very best not to think that there are people out there who are using me as one. And i’ve been trying to convince myself that you will realize what you are doing to me. We used to be best of friends, but we have chosen to take on different paths because of the education we choose and we both deserve.  Our friendship seemed to falter behind. It’s nobody’s fault.

Can you please stop telling me that you miss me? And then all of a sudden a favor will burst out of your mouth? I rarely hear from you, but when you need something from me, you seem to act that we are still best of friends. I hope you can discern it yourself that we are no longer in that stage. I don’t rant. I just hope you won’t make me feel that way again. Please don’t use me as an accessory when you need something from me that you can’t provide. That’s not what friends are for. And with what you are doing, you just make me feel worse that we are not real friends after all. Was the friendship for real? or for reel?

I’m not shallow. I just feel hurt.

Is that what I am to you?